Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Letting Go

Having moved from place to place every few months for the past year, I noticed that it was hard for me to get attached to any one place, any one church ward, any one group of co-workers, any one group of new acquaintances. I hate goodbyes, so maybe that was part of it. I guess I just didn't see the point in trying to grow some roots if I was just going to pick up and leave again. Well, that made for a kind of truly lonely life—being a self-proclaimed wanderer.

Then something changed. I learned that I was going to be in California longer than I had planned. (You think I would learn by now that making plans is sort of a waste of time.) I was hesitant, but I started to try and build a life here and get involved. I had my records moved into my new church ward, I accepted church callings, and I started making new friends, as well as hanging out with my old ones. I learned to enjoy the moments I was living in, rather than worry or anticipate what was coming next in my life. And it has made all the difference.

The harder you try and hang on to life, the more lost you get. Your eyes become closed to what is around you and the opportunities that present themselves to you. When you learn to let go, life becomes more clear. You find joy. You rediscover the love that you have for the world, and the love that the world has for you—the love that Heavenly Father has for you.

It is often said that in order to find yourself, you have to lose yourself. I have found this to be true. Lose yourself in the good. And slowly, life will present itself to you. 

XOXO LOV