Today by no means marks the end of one of the hardest trials in my life. But it does mark the passing of one year since the unforgettable realization that my life, and the lives of my friends, had been saved by the grace of a loving Heavenly Father.
The year was full of darkness and uncertainty. And though it may have been hard to see, there was at times a glimpse of light and a guiding hand.
This is not a post to tell of those events. This is a post to show my gratitude – to you.
In the October 2015 General Conference for The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, there was one talk that seemed to be specifically for me. You always here of those experiences, where someone hears something said in one of the talks and they just know it was meant for them, but it never seems to happen to you. I was blessed to have this experience when Elder Vern P. Stanfill gave his talk, entitled “Choose the Light.” His whole talk was for me.
He gives us a little bit of background about his experience being a seasoned bike rider. And then he tells the story of how he went with his wife and some friends on a bike trail which included a long, dark tunnel. He was warned of the deep darkness he would encounter, and soon found the light he brought was not strong enough to get him through the tunnel. He became confused disoriented, and anxious. He felt like he was riding a bike for the first time.
When he expressed his discomfort, he was invited to draw closer to his friend for what felt like hours while he used his friend’s light to make it through the tunnel. When he finally started to see the pinpoint of light at the end of the tunnel, he grew gradually more capable of using his own light.
Elder Stanfill used this story as an analogy for when we go through trials in our lives.
“While we are struggling in the darkness, there is nothing wrong with relying temporarily upon the light of those who love us and have our best interests at heart,” he said.
He does go on to say that we can’t live on borrowed light forever. That I know. I’m getting there. I don’t know that I can truly say I see the end of my trial, or the pinpoint of light at the end of the tunnel. There are many more milestones I will need to conquer. But I do feel my own light becoming stronger.
It is becoming stronger thanks to you.
I am grateful for friends and family that have been selfless enough as to show me their light and to let me borrow some of it. The thing with light is, if you share it with someone else, you don’t lose any of it. You just both get to enjoy what the light offers. Sometimes you don't even know you're sharing it, but you both come closer to God.
Towards the end of his talk, Elder Stanfill said, “There is no darkness so dense, so menacing, or so difficult that it cannot be overcome by light.”
Though it may take some time, you can count on the truthfulness of that statement. At least, I'm choosing to believe that.
So … thank you for letting me borrow your light.